My birthday and I am turning 20!!

I guess it's not so bad that I turned 20. At first I thought:"20?! That's like so old!". I guess I couldn't accept the fact that I was getting a year older that's all. Hmm..I feel I am mentally ready for the things that life will throw at me from now on, and I guess I have a matured a little depsite the fact that I am still telling lame jokes to my friends. I feel that I am a little aloof to people nowadays, but that's because I am a thinker. Virgo girls are thinkers. I have been alone by myself for too long!!!

Turning 20 is no biggie, but for me it's a great deal. I have definitely grown up a lot mentally, although I am still the same height as I was back in primary school (sad). I joked with my mum (a few years ago) that on my 21st birthday, she should give me a necklace with a key as a pendant signifying my independence. Come to think of it, she has given me a lot of freedom, and the key would be somehow redundent because I still stick to her like I have always did since I was young.

This birthday I am greatful for all the things I have, the good and bad times I had experienced, and learn not to take things for granted. I can't wait to get older because I will get wiser and that will make up for those times that I was childish and those stupid things that I have done in the past.

Wishes: Study hard, love life, lose weight, and help Mum in any way I can. Of course, good health and happiness for myself and my friends!!!

Gonna slack for a while more even though I gotta study. It's my right because it's my birthday today!! Haha

In distress...

I met my brother and his gf on Tuesday, he had to pass me a book for Econs. When he ask me how was my studying and I replied that I could cope for now, and I think I would need help on Econs and Maths. They then pushed the topic of teaching me these two subjects to each other. Like "Oh, he can help you. No lah, she can help you". I guess I am on my own, and I don't think I can depend on them (my brother said if there was any qns I can ask him). They are gonna start school soon and I doubt they would be too busy to help me. Hiaz....

Stressed out because I need to depend on my own and I got a assignment due next week and its quite tough to tackle. I guess I will just work on assignment today (there is construction going on and I need the silence to study), and study tomorrow instead.

Guess this blog is my stress-reliever and refuge. Hiaz. Hope I got the determination to study and last for next three years (because I don't wanna repeat any modules - a waste of my time and money).

Wish me luck - and now I am not so in the mood of enjoying my birthday when it comes...Hiaz