responsibilities!!!

I see my Mum writing cheques to pay off the utilities for the house, my internet bill and other stuff. I wonder when would it be my turn, and I suddenly feel an increased amount of pressure and that I don't wanna go into adulthood that quickly. I want to take over all the bills so that she doesn't need to work so hard, and in order to do so I would have to get a "very" good job in the future. Thus I am mentally prepared to study my hardest when I get to start pursuing my degree. BUT...I have yet to receive the letter stating my enrolment, and I am starting to get a little worried. I don't wanna get my hopes too high, but I really look forward to studying since the economy is so bad and I haven't really gotten a job yet. I have already thought of what I wanna buy when I start the school term - like a new bag and other things.

I don't know what I will do if I don't get a spot in the university. T-T...I guess I have to pray harder because I have done my part - like the results from my polytechnic and my secondary school, so this enrolment thing is all in God's hands. I always ask my Mum to open the letter box to see if I get any letter from the university but I haven't, and I hate the waiting. Geez... I need to have more patience.

Wish me luck and pray for me!!! :P